a little scary

So, I was browsing some other blogs, connected to other blogs, connected to other blogs, and so on, and came across something about “colorgenics.”  Being the curious type, I just had to check it out…basically you click on 8 colored boxes in whatever order you want, and it pops out with a profile for you.  Here’s mine: 

Enough is enough – and you feel that you’ve had enough for a while. You don’t need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout ’stop’ and experience a little peace and calm – even if it be only for a little while. This doesn’t mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world – it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict.

You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything – but be careful not to take too many risks.

Enough is enough – but the problems never seem to stop. They never stop. You feel, and maybe you are right, that the problems seem to go on and on and you have indeed had more than your fair share of trials and tribulations. But to give you credit – you bounce back time and time again – you stick to your beliefs because deep down you have that inner knowledge, that ‘belief’ system that in the end, everything will turn out OK – and you are right -it will!

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in ‘dreaming’ but it is you – and only you – that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality.

All I can say is HOW DID THEY DO THAT??

My skeptical side told me to go back and try again, clicking a different order.  I did, and came up with something different, but totally the same, and again, totally accurate!  Just to be sure, I checked on the girl’s blog that I originally linked from, and her’s is totally different and doesn’t apply at all to me.  I just don’t know what to make of it.

another day on the job…

As a general rule, I’m not the most self-starting person when it comes to, well, anything.  My house usually is cluttered (not dirty…I am a CLEAN person, just not neat) and there are usually a million to-do things on my list.  As a matter of fact, I have about a million to-do lists!  You can call it lazy (I do), but I just haven’t figured out what motivates me in most areas of my life.

That being said….I am very motivated when it comes to cleaning, as I mentioned before; cooking, one of my great loves; my children, do I really need to explain that one; and my work.  Even in a job I really dislike, I just can’t help myself.  I can’t be half ass.  If something needs done, it needs done, and it needs done well.  It drives me nuts when people work half ass.  I mean, you get PAID to do something.  You were probably chosen over other people who could use the work the same, if not more than you, and you can’t even do it to the best of your ability? What the crap? 

I only mention this because I have lately been catching a lot of flack at work for wanting to try: try to fix what’s wrong.  try to lift morale.  try to have a good working relationship with our sister “companies.”  try to do my job to the best of my ability.  Arguement is that it’s been tried,  and it just doesn’t work so give up.  THAT IS CRAP!  If it’s important enough to complain about, it’s important enough to continue to make an effort to change.  Of course I get this arguement mostly from those (usually male) older co-workers who tend to try to teach me, guide me, mentor me, and if that doesn’t work, tell me what to do.  I appreciate the concern guys, but I’ve got this.  It’s always the way.  Ok, so I can admit I’m ok to look at, and on top of that I look really young.  (Probably would get in trouble with the hall monitor in any local high school for not being in class) But it’s always the way…”she’s young, she doesn’t know any better,” or “she’s new, she doesn’t know any better,” or “she’s pretty, she can’t possibly know any better” and then comes the “guidance because I do know better.”  Thanks but no thanks.  I’ve got a father, and last I checked, he knows if I don’t know better, I will find out real soon, on my own, thank you!